I started this blog to have an outlet to vent and to catalogue my progress of executing the promises I made to myself at the beginning of this year and oh so many years before. I was excited to get it going, used it as cheap therapy to aid in clearing my mind and it was totally working! So what did I do as a result? I stopped blogging 🤔 Why is it that the very thing that is good for us often times becomes the very thing we direct the least effort towards? For some people it’s working out, eating right, educating themselves, spending less money, changing their circle, the list is infinite. I sat and wondered about the why and settled in on the fact that the things that make us better are harder, more challenging and so the easy road is taken more often than not. I mean it’s easier for me to come up with reasons not to blog because then I don’t have to do a self check to see if i’m still on the right path. Writing causes me to evaluate my here and now by reflecting on the days before. It prevents me from burying my head in the sand and going through life just doing what i’m expected to do (work, take care of my kids, work some more, and sleep). Writing makes me less of a robot and I like that it transforms me into someone that’s slightly centered. I say slightly because i’m usually all over the place with my actions and I know for a fact that me being all over the place is good for absolutely no one. So here I am back at it again with no pomp and circumstance just good ole sit your ass down and write energy. I overslept for my 5 AM workout this morning which is great cheap therapy too by the way. Instead of going back to sleep, I blew the dust off of my laptop and sat my ass down to write. I decided to give myself weekly tasks of no more than 2-3 things that I will force myself to do towards my mental and physical health. Some of these things are part of life for most but for me they are truly things I must force because my life is; work, take care of my kids, work some more, and sleep. Notice eat is not there because i’ve been skipping that a ton and need to be better. I think I need to implement it in this way because I’m always last on my list. I thank God for my generous heart but need to be more generous to myself to ensure I don’t stay in this “all I do is” cycle. Here’s my list for this week (there’s only 3 days left in the week so cut me some slack on my choices).
I’m really liking Sarah Jakes Roberts as i’ve recently been exposed to her and plan on getting her book Don’t Settle for Safe this weekend and reading it. The challenge is not buying the book but finding the time to read it. We’ll see how I fare.
I’ve been renting for the past 2 years and after being a homeowner it’s quite a change. It still doesn’t feel like home and that is due in part to the fact that i’m 1200 miles away from home but is mostly due to the fact that I don’t add any touches to make it a home. This weekend I will start on the loft area (word wall) and buy myself some damn curtains for my bedroom. It it wasn’t for the sun i’d probably never put curtains up, but it’s a must….might help towards this electric bill too (sigh).